Why a lot of us don't have a job is lack of self promotion, not lack of skill or work ethic. You do not lack skill or a work ethic at all (as if that was a question) and your stuff is beautiful. You seem like a great person to be with too.
Hope you don't get back and question yourself again because artistry is hard enough.
I hope things look up for you soon; you're an amazing person, with an amazing world on your hands, and an inspiration to a lot of people, not just for your ability to create. Prayers for a speedy find for the way you need to go, whatever that ends up being.
Sorry to hear about your employment troubles. It can be hard to make a living out what you enjoy doing - a sad state of affairs for us. I wish you luck and satisfaction.
this is amazing!
As for real-life situations, you do what you need to and what is best for you, dear. We'll (I know I will, at least) support you whatever you choose to do.
That said, even your doodles floor me. So fluid, and a powerfully unique vision.
As for your career situation, I don't know if you're in a situation of insecurity in your work or just burned out by the profession (I'm still an art student so I can't imagine how much work freelancing must be), but either way I hope you continue making the kind of art you make, whether it's in your personal time or professionally. Your style is very distinct and different from a lot of art I see, and I really hope you keep with it whatever you decide to do.
I hope everything works out!